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"Jangan terlalu keras sama dirimu sendiri." - P

I know i've been so hard with myself since i live by my own that i need to take a break. Mum been begging me to go home for a while, yet i don't feel like to. I DO wanna go home but it always come with such uneasy feeling. I'm fed up with my life, as the needs getting higher than previous year, i need a better job. The fact that i reduced my shifts i'm no longer be able to pay my rent and stuffs get me so miserable. School been hard lately as am such a reckless person. I have no motivation to keep going, but the picture of failure is bigger than everything else that i need to smash it while i can.

I'm pretty much don't know what to do.